. . .but am I?

January is almost over and I'm just now feeling as though the holiday fog has lifted.

Partly because Mr. Toddler is finally sleeping through the night after over two weeks of being in a twin bed and getting that all figured out. Sleep does help quite a bit!

I've decided to choose one word for 2020, as I chose Delight in 2019. I don't remember how I originally came up with Brave, but I remember when I saw an advertisement for 100 Days to Brave by Annie F Downs it definitely felt like this word was what I needed for this new year.

Then, just for the heck of it, I took the Dayspring "Word" quiz to see if it would match up with what I had already chosen; I do believe Stand is a good antonym for Brave and I especially loved the verses they offered to reflect on and support my one-word journey in 2020.

Google defines Brave - adjective; ready to face and endure danger or pain; showing courage.

When I read this I have a lot of conflicting thoughts; on one hand, do I even need to be? And then, well YES, I do, I mean I have three boys that sometimes push me to the brink of crazy.

But then, can I be brave? And this has so many different aspects to it. Now that I'm getting decent sleep I feel like, sure, I can be brave. I can write down my goals and dreams and maybe start making a plan to pursue those. But can I get beyond the "writing down" part? A year ago, the answer would have been no, even 3 months ago the answer would have been no.

But, once again, God works in mysterious ways.

Day 25 of the 100 Days to Brave devotional is called "Dream in Pieces" and I love how the author talks about God only giving us pieces of the "puzzle" of ours dreams and only when we need them - "because we would be too scared of the whole puzzle."